Give thanks…

Everyone likes to compare themselves with others people…
Including me - myself also same…
I always compare my ability with people who are great than me,
After make comparison with them, I start to feel self-pity; I start to feel I am useless…
At that situation, I lost my way, I feel suffer with everything…
I always compare my result with my friends, after I get know their result is better than me, and then I start to feel jealous with them. I start to become selfish, I try my best to get better result to let people know I also not that bad, after I get the good result I never feel happy, I feel lonely. I feel lost everything though I get a good result. All my friend go away from me, they feel that I am selfish… they don’t like to talk with me, they feel that I am no honest…
After get know God, I always ask myself why I do that. Live is no for others people, it is my life. I have the right to be myself. Why I always force myself to do thing for people? Am I feeling happy after win people? No, I never feel happy I feel normal, nothing special… No one is perfect, if I continue to make comparison with others people, I won’t get satisfaction in my life, so many people I will compare…
I thanks God, He show me the way… He tell me that whatever I am He still love me, I won’t feel that I am crazy or stupid… He don’t care about my speaking skill is not good, though I can’t speak smoothly but He still listen my prayer, He still like to communicate with me, everyday He talk will me and teach me how to be a better student, a better daughter for my parents… Every time I compare my own ability with people He will talk to me that: “ Sherene, you are the best, need not do comparison with people, need no to feel self pity or feel sad that you are not that good like others”…
Because of Him I feel satisfied with myself…
Because of Him, I love all people around me; I won’t feel jealous with them…
When people are better than me, then u will give thanks to God, because give me chance to learn from others people… When I am better than people, I give thanks to God also because the wisdom to teach people… all the time I will glorify His name…

my family

there are my family members, i love them sooo much,
i give thanks to God, because bless me a happiness family....
the picture was taken during Chinese New Year =D

my uncle come from Singapura,
he come to visit my daddy...
he is a very nice old man, he care my family, he treat my daddy like his son..
thanks God give him a very strong body...

guilty because misunderstand with my sister

i am so sorry that i hurt you so deep...

really i feel very very guilty...

father lord, please forgive me, i know i am wrong, please give me one more chance, i promise that i i will control my emotion before i get angry. lord, i really don't know what i can do, only i can do is telling you and surrender to you... please help me comfort my sister heart, i can feel that her heart have a super big scar, i feel pain when my mum tell me everything she is done for me, i feel that i am useless, i am their elder sister but i cant to be a good example to them... please control me so that next time i wont be so easy feel angry, please give me your wisdom to do everything well, i need to have a good image in front of my family, so that they can accept me to be a Christian, please protect all my family member, in Jesus name i pray, amen...

Changing Something

Me, Chia Fei Voon is a normal girl,
I like to keep everything into my heart, I like silent myself,
I got many many friends but I feel lonely, feel that I not suitable to live in this world or… I can’t feel happy like all my others friend…
After I accept Christ into my heart, my pastor give me a Christian name, start that day I become Sherene Chia Fei Voon… At beginning I feel fresh, I like to be a Christian feel very nice, very happy, feel peace… but after few months ago, I start to feel like normal already, nothing is special, then feel that Satan start to move my heart, he start to change my mind to make me feel struggle with everything… I am lucky that around me got many many sister are protect me, I can feel that they put more and more effort to protect us… because of them, I become more mature in my characteristic, my emotional and also my thinking…
I can feel that I am changing every day, every day I do something which I also don’t know why I do so. Every day I have vision, don’t know come from where, everyday I think about God. Every day I feel touch, every day I feel that want to share my happiness with people, every day I hope everyone can like me. Every day I feel want to help people, though I am busy. Every day pay attention with all people around me, from their face I see something. Some of them I feel they are lonely, sad, they struggle, they confuse with something, fear, hopeless… sometime I look at someone, I can feel he/she like need listener, but they are not faithful with their friends they scare to share with their friends… at beginning I just feel that I think too much already. Again, they not my friends why I want to pay attention on them; we don’t know each other… But what I think is wrong; I can’t control myself to not think about them. Every day I feel like very hungry to win their soul, wish to bring more and more people to God…
I always talk to myself: “hey, sherene you are student, what you need to do is concentrate in your studies, don’t always do all this thing, they are not your job, sure got other people help them one, must believe that got other people will go and peach gospel to them, don’t be kepo ok...” but every time I talk myself like that, every time got sound talk to me that people will be me… I feel tired, why every day got sound control my mind??? Why I face this problem not others, I can clearly see that the problem is on me, I am over religious already… but ps jade always tell me that it is not call religious, it is because we are obey God, but obey God mean we need to do too many thing to Him???

Hospital visitation

Wow…
Soooo happy, today we do a very good thing,..
We have hospital visitation today,
I feel good; I like to have this experience,
I like to share with people about how God do thing for me, what He done on my life, how He heal my parents, what He a give me…

one night, i slept until mid night then suddenly awake, and a picture come out from my mind,
I feel sad because when Jesus second time come to the world, mean that the end of the world is coming, all living will be die…
I feel sad no because of I will die and leave the world,
I feel sad only because of in the heaven only I meet is out of Islam people…
I feel sad that we only can bring people who are non Islam…
While all the Islam people we can’t meet on the heaven…
Sad =(
everyday i think about it, i don't what i want to do, just know i always take a very long long time think this kind of thing...

But today I feel good, because I peace gospel to two Malay woman,
I can see that they are hopeless, they are sad, feel their life is not meaningful; they are totally given up with their life…
This two woman have canceled, I heard from them, they feel life is bitterness…
They feel like waiting to die only…
Oh!!! No, I can’t see them continue give up with their life,
Though sick, but I believe that they still can do something, I cant see them waste their time to think negative…
So I pray before I talk to them, I pray for God wisdom upon me, so that I know how to comfort them with the right way… thanks God guide me and bless me a smooth tongue to talk to them, God wanted me to share my testimony to them, so I go ahead…
I tell them about my daddy story, I tell how God heal my daddy… how bad when my daddy don’t know God, what was happen to my daddy before I accepted Christ…
I really give thanks a lot to God, He give me a better life. God is great, He loves us so much…
Pastor Peach to us before, he say:”ask and receive, any problem just surrender to God, He will help us to solve the entire problem”. That is no reason why God do that. Just because of a father love their children so He does everything to them… a super super simply reason…

MIRACLE !!!

a great things, but people always lack of hope for miracle...
i feel happy that too much of Miracle come upon me...
my dad kidney cant work well, then our whole family are suffer with the disease that my dad get, while my mum also not a very good healthy woman, she always feel headache, she is weak... i am very worry of both of my parents. after all this bad news get from my parents, we start to suffer in our finance problem, my family business suddenly get a very big problem, until all of us feel that the end of the world is coming to our family... it was a very bitter life for me, i never feel it since young... i care about how people look at my family, i start to don't like go back home, i start to my parents that i have many many homework need to do, i scare to let people know my problem including the people that i trust more... i keep it on my heart and start to complain everyday...
luckily i get know God early, He touch my heart and make my mind become positive, i start to tell people the problem that i face, i start to surrender all the problem to Him... Finally by my faithful heart, God has been heal my parents and also my family business, He had solve our finance problem, but it need more time, i was fall down again and again, many time i give up hope and also feel angry with God, but He never never leave me, He always forgive me...

one thing i can share is...
trusting God and also be faithful to God is not a easy thing, it need more time and also a very stronger heart...
just like when we swim on the sea, we swim and swim, but so far we still cant see the land... it is very tired to continue to swim, but if we keep on continue to swim and be faithful that will reach the land, remind yourself mind will reach the land as soon as possible, then sure you will reach the land more faster than you give up hope and always take a short rest on half way... but if you swim until half way and give up hope to continue swim and you stop at there then let the small wave slowly bring you far away from the land, on the end of the day you still cant reach to the land...
i like this story so much, it encourage me more and more, when i feel sad and also disappoint, then the story will appear to my mind and remind me again and again, so that i won't give up hope with everything God done for me,i know that He got Him purpose for me...
God i give thanks to you...
thanks that u help me heal my parents, i thank you that always bless us, thanks that you had touch my parents heart, thanks that save us and give us a happiness life, i thanks for your mercy and also your love...
I GIVE THANKS TO ALL THE THING S THAT YOUR DONE FOR ME...

CONFUSE....

i am a very easy worry about many many things, everything can influence my mood.
but because of Jesus i learn how to be not easier to be worry...
i know how to surrender my burden to God...
sometime i feel that I'm Strong, I'm mature, I'm faithful, i not how to code my stress....
but sometime i feel that I'm weak....
sometime i feel that i know myself, but sometime i totally don't understand myself,
don't what i want, what i need, what i feel, what am i thinking..
I'm a very happiness person, God create a perfect life for me,
all i need my parents will give me...
people around me love me, care me...
but i cant accept too much of love,
when people start to be friend with me,we can be close...
when we spend more time to get know each other more deeper,
i Will start to reject them, not because of them not good, just because of we become more close than before...
i cant get any best friend because of some rejection inside my heart...
i am confuse with the thing that i do..
i like people caring me, i don't people too caring me,...
i love those who love me, but i reject those that love me...
I'm struggle... reject people is a very bad feeling, it make myself feel lonely...
i feel sad because i hurt some people who love me...
I'm angry because people too close with me...
i hate myself because i cant accept real relationship with everyone....

Father Lord, please help me, give me your wisdom to settle my problem, take away all my bad thinking, so that i can grow to be more mature in my mind, my emotion and also character...
please change my bad attitude now, open out my heart to receive your love...
remind me that my main satisfaction and sense of acceptance is from You not others, so that i wont be so easy influence by people around me..
Lord, You know me more than myself, please come upon me and change me, control myself so that i won't hurt people, holy spirit please talk to me, i want to listen You...
in Jesus name i pray, AMEN

How Can I Cope with Stress

How Can I Cope with Stress
Stress… everyone having difference problem, facing difference kind of stress…
How to handle our stress?
When we are stress, what we will do?
Cry, throw all our things, scolding people, angry, and argue with people…
Many many things that I will do without our controlling…
How to handle our stress?
How to don’t control by our own stress?
Let me share some principles of stress management la… it is a very good sharing :)
There eighth principle for handing stress in our life,
First principle is : Know who you are.
Jesus said, “I know who I am, I testify to myself.” If you don’t know who you are, you will let other people manipulate you and pressure you into being somebody you aren’t. Yup, I agree… when we lose our way, we will easily influence by people around us. Then worse will come upon us. Always remember this word: “I know who I am by knowing whose I am”, mean that before you get to know who you are, you need to get know you belong to whose. I know who am I, I am a child of God, I belong to God family :)
Second principle is: Know Who You’re Trying to Please, mean that we must know who we want to make them happy. Just like I study hard because want show a very good result to my parents. But I most important thing is we want to please God, so we do all good things. When you don’t know whom you’re trying to please, you cave in to three things: CRITICISM, COMPETITION AND CONFLICT. 1st - you criticism because you are concerned about what other people think about you.
2nd- you are competition because you worry about whether somebody else is getting ahead of you.
3rd – you conflict because you are threatened when people disagree with you.
A very powerful promise of God is “if you seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, then all the other necessary things of life will be added unto me” mean that if we please God, it will simplify our life. Nice leh, God promise us to give us every good things if we please Him.
Third principle is: know what you want to accomplish. Mean that what is your goal, what your plan… In bible, Jesus said: “I know where I come from and I know where I am going.” Unless you plan your life, and set priorities, you’ll be pressured by what other people think is important. Encourage: spend a few minutes each day in prayer talking with God, tell him your entire schedule for the day. Then let God lead you and guide you…
Principle number four is: Focus on one thing at a time. When we not concentrated our efforts, we are ineffective. But when we concentrate our efforts, we are more affective. Some people are easier disturbed by people around them. When we face many problems at the same, try yourself to focus on one by one, settle your things one by one. Pay more time to concentrate that thing, don’t be easy give up hope… everything is possible if we willing to spend more time to find out the way to settle…
Fifth principle is: Don’t try to do it all yourself. Team work is very powerful; it can produce a very good result. Jesus trained His twelve disciples so that they could share the load. He delegated His work. We cannot focus on more than one thing at a time and do it effectively. When facing problem, just open out our mouth and ask people for help and let people involved, so that that thing will be done effectively. Don’t always have this kind of thinking: “nobody can do it like I can”… we need others strength and also God strength, bible said: we can do all things through Christ who strengthen us… Learn to put our faith in God that everything He can strengthen us…
The sixth principle is making a habit of personal prayer. We need have a quiet time to be alone with God. Talk with God in the prayer, tell Him what’s on our mind, and let Him talk to us. Sometime when we are facing problem, we only know how to keep on complaining, we complain and complain… never ever stop, at that moment if God has speak to us we also can’t hear one… so better let yourself to be silent and hear God words by open up your heart…
Principle number seven is take time to enjoy your life. Try to relax yourself when you feel stress… hearing some worship song is the best way for me to relax myself… we need to balance our life by enjoying life…
The last principle is giving all our stress to Christ, Jesus said: come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest… He said also: I want to give you rest. I am the stress- reliever. When you get in harmony with me, I will give you inner strength.
Wow!!! A very good lesson for Nicole… thank you for sharing me all this principles, it has been encourage me to handle my stress.
Father Lord, I know that You want to telling me something through Nicole, I give thanks to You. You take away all my stress, now I want to please you… Lord, please give me a new life. Replace the pressure I feel with the peace You offer. Help me follow Your principles of stress management. I love sooooo much..:) good night my father in heaven…

A Powerful Prayer

Dear Lord,

I thank You for this day,

I thank You for my being able to see And to hear this morning.

I'm blessed because You are A forgiving God and An understanding God.

And You keep on blessing me.

Forgive me this day for everything I have done,

said or thought That was not pleasing to you.

I ask now for Your forgiveness..

Please keep me safe From all danger and harm.

Help me to start this day With a new attitude and plenty of gratitude.

Let me make the best of each and every day To clear my mind so that I can hear from You.

Please broaden my mind That I can accept all things.

Let me not whine and whimper Over things I have no control over.

And give me the best response When I'm pushed beyond my limits.

I know that when I can't pray,

You listen to my heart.

Continue to use me to do Your will.

Continue to bless me that I may be A blessing to others.

Keep me strong that I may help the weak....

Keep me uplifted that I may have Words of encouragement for others.

I pray for those that are lost And can't find their way.

And misunderstood.

I pray for those who Don't know You intimately.

I pray for those that will delete this Without sharing it with others I pray for those that don't believe.

But I thank You that I believe That God changes people and God changes things.

I pray for all my sisters and brothers.

For each and every family member In their households.

I pray for peace, love and joy In their homes; that they are out of debt And all their needs are met.

I pray that every eye that reads this Knows there is no problem, circumstance, Or situation greater than God.

Every battle is in Your hands for You to fight.

I pray that these words be received Into the hearts of every eye that sees it In Jesus' name.. Amen!

mercy- a very important thing in our life

I am so sorry to everything…
I am so sorry my dad and my mum, because i make u all feel sad,i know that very hard for u all to accept me to be a christian, but i thing i want let you know is i never never regret with i decision, i still same, no stop in my heart to keep love my family… I am sorry all my friend, because always emotion and also make u all feel worry and no mood. I am sorry all my lecturer, because I din’t concentrate in yours class, i will try my best to pay more attention during class... I am sorry all my church member, because always make you all worry me, especially my pastor and also my leader, i promise that i will become more and more mature. I am so sorry to my best friend Carolyn, Jocelyn and also Jetaime, because this few weeks always reject you all and make you all sad and disappointed… the most important is I am sooooo sorry my roommate, though I don’t know why I apology to you, but I know that you also feel uncomfortable stay with me, right?? If I can be more merciful, think our problem will be settled few months ago…

i want let everyone know....

Sherene love all of you sooooo much....
God I want become a merciful people …
HATE… ANGRY… EMOTION… won’t suitable me, all this problem I don’t want… please take away these… all I want is only LOVE, just a simply words…
LOVE, is a very simply words, but it is a most powerful thing in our life…

Thanks God save me free…

10 NOV 2009
Father Lord, I want to tell u…
Though I know that u know all things already, but I still want to tell u…
I am happy, I talk my mum all the truth, and then she sound like can accepts my explanation…
Thanks’ God…
Just like Ps Jade said: God, You are always with me, You never never leave me…
Today I have a many tear, I cry until my eyes feel very very pain, but all this things is worth. I can be a honest to face everyone, I can loud loud to every people that I am a Christian, I am a believer of God, believer of Jesus…
I give thanks to everything…
Thanks God =D
U are my only God, no one else can replace You…
I want to surrender myself to you, I want to prove to my parents that my decision won’t wrong… I am choosing a very good thing in my life…
Good night my heavenly father, I love you sooooo much :)

I am Disappointed...

I am totally give up, disappointed and also sad and down, until I cannot control myself not to do something which is I don’t want to do one…
Who can help me??? Don’t know why I do that? Don’t know what situation I stand? I hate myself to be like that, but how come I cannot control myself? I know that I life is perfect but how come I don’t give thanks. I know that complaint is not good, I still complain and complain never stop…


Inside my heart have a very not nice feeling, got feeling of rejection, feeling of angry, and feeling of hate…
I am touch with this story which is given by pastor jade and grace…

One night I dreamed I was walking along the beach with the lord. Many scenes from my life flashed across the sky in each scene I noticed footprints in the sand. Sometimes there were two set of footprints, other time there were one set of footprints.
This bothered me because I noticed that during the low periods of my life, when I was suffering from anguish, sorrow or defeat, I could see only one set of footprints.
So I said to the lord, “you promised me Lord, that if I follow you, you would walk with me always. But I have noticed that during the most sad and down periods of my life there have only been one set of footprints in the sand. Why, when I need u most, you have not been there for me?”
The lord replied, “My child, the times when you have seen only one set of footprints in the sand, that is WHEN I CARRIED YOU.”


1ST time I read this story I won’t feel anything, just now that it is a very meaningful story. But why 2nd time I read it will be this kind of feeling? That story like talking about me. God if u really carried me, why I cannot feel it?
I am so sorry that I always complaint, i know that i should give thanks to God….
But it is me… I also hope that I can change, but it is not that easy…

i am sad... :(

A Very Big Turning Point In My Life

Sharing is a good thing, i like share everything i have...
When you see people feel happy because of you, u will also feel happy...
But sometime i will ask myself, is it good to be like that??
In this world, not every people think like that...
Sometime you treat people well, but at the finally that people will also hurt you...
That kind of feeling is very very bad,
Then inside our heart appear some fear, some rejected and some emotional...
It will be a big turning point in our life...
You may become silent, emotional, fear to get know people...
Then life become darkness, non meaningful...
While if you change your mind and don't to think that you are most bad luck person..
You will feel your that life is good...
Life is interesting...
in fact, you feel that God is good, He give us a chance to experience Him more...
In my life, has more and more this kind of turning point, at the beginning i always complaint to God, God you are unfair, everyone say You love us sooooo much... But why You always let me like too suffer... At that time i always felt that my life is terrible, both of my parents get disease, i love them soooo much, i cant live without them... everyday i worry about them, I'm scaring once day they will leave me, what can i do??? i don't know, that time i just know how to complaint my life and also getting down and down... no more light in my life...
I feel lucky...
That is my big turning point after i get to know our God - Jesus
He gives me hope, guide me come out from that darkness place...
Take away all my suffer and my burden.
Now i only now how to give thanks to Him...
He create many miracle in my life,
Make me feel warm in this cooler world...

Yes, there are my beloving family...
We are happiness...
18th AUGUST 2009 (A SUNNY DAY)
Suddenly feel very peaceful and joyful...
There are a very touch feeling come out from my heart. That feeling cannot explain, so comfortable and also very sweet...
Too many kind of love are surround my life,
LOVE is a important thing in our life, without it we will living in the darkness place,
The place which is full of sadness...
That why, God give us His 1st love, He create our life full of love...
Let me review something, long time ago, i was living in the darkness place...
Which i always feel selfpity, always conplaning, always think to negative...
Wow!! That is so hard for savoir rite??
Luckily God is discover me, His is only one who save me and give me all thing i having now...
Oh Lord, i want to talk loudly to everyone, i love you sooooo much...
I give thank to You...

Hurt???

Hurt???
Anyone know what is hurt?
It is a feeling of painful which is come from our heart,
that feeling we cannot explain…
Hurt can make someone become crazy; it can change our attitude by the hurt…
Hurt is a very sensitive thing, somebody because of their hurt and make them lost their confident…
They lost their confident to do many things,
And also because of hurt they cannot be success in their life, thought they are a perfectly guy or girl…
So don’t let our hurt and defeat our life…
In our perfect life is no more bitterness, throw away our sadness and thinking positive,
Then we can found that actually life isn’t that bad…
So try and cheer up a bit, everything will be done automatically…
I am sure that everyone will go on to that bitterness part, which is our sadness moment…
But that doesn’t mean is a bad thing in our life,
It is a chance for us to grow, to gain more and more knowledge in our life and also in our society, it also a way for us to change ourselves … just like me – Sherene…
I am a normal girl, no more specially skill I have…
But because of God, I know that I have my pretentions,
I can do many specially souvenir, I can care people by my loving heart, I can also do many things that others cannot do it…
I am special with others also, my special is uniqueness…
Sometime we need to open our mind and change our mind to think to the positive way,
Doesn’t mean that we are cheating ourselves,
It is a way for us to make our future life become more and more happiness… =)
LOVE = HAPPINESS
Love to others, others will also love to you…
Our world is full of many type of love…

My bad attitude

My bad attitude
July 22, 2009 (a very no mood night)
I am sad, jie jie say my attitude is selfish. Actually I think also la.
I am selfish, I never care all other person, I just want all people concern me and caring me. That is me… a very bad attitudes, I have to change all this bad attitudes, if not that will bring me many problem in my future life.
I agree that what jie jie say just now. That is my problem when I feel disconnect with my cell group members. Because I am selfish and also jealous so I feel disconnect with other. Thanks jie jie, because let me know all this.
But why I still feel sad ne? Lord Jesus, jie jie say you are only one can always listen me, you tell me... How can I change my bad attitude? I want to be a perfectly girl, I want to be your very good daughter. I want to learn from you, you are a merciful God; You give us your first love. You teach me how to be a merciful girl, please…
Lord Jesus, I hope to tell my parent about You, I wish to tell them about I get water baptized already. You help me and give me an opportunity to tell them. When I tell them about this they won’t scold me. I hope that they can accept me…
Lord, you help me to improve my family finance ok. My daddy need a very big amount for medicine every months, you help me solve my parent business problem, so that they need not worry about the finance.
In Jesus name I pray, AMEN \[o_o]/

A very tired day…

A very tired day…
July 26, 2009
Wa!! Today is soooo tired.
This week I back hometown again, a very long travelling from KL to pulau ketam, when I reach there already 5++ pm. but looking at my parents, they was so happy when saw me back, strength upon me again… hehe
I love my family so much, I am happiness. I have a very lovely parents who care us so much, I have 4 little younger sister and brother, they are respect me so much. That is my family. I willingly to do all things for them, though I am tired.
Yesterday, I accompany daddy drink tea and chatting until 10++pm, then accompany mum chatting until 12am something. After that, I have supper with all my younger sister and brother again… so bad rite? Around 12++ am, I bring all my younger sister and brother going out and have supper… hehe but I think that is ok one, because not always like that ma…
We have supper until around 3:00 am, actually I feel tired so much one, no more energy but all my sister and brother like very happy to talk with me, they got many thing want to share with, so I got no choice la…
The next day, there is today la… I wake up at 8:00 am, so early rite? But I have no choice. Because I decide to attend the evening praise celebration, so I must be wake up earlier than other day. This morning my mums do too many delicious foods from me to eat, at the whole morning I eat never stop, after our family gathering I go and prepare to come back to KL. Suddenly, feel a bit sad, I feel sad because want depart them.
At that time, I feel myself so crazy, why I want sendiri find trouble for myself, actually I can be very relax at my home and enjoy the time with my family one. But I don’t want, I choose the way to go back KL and attend the praise celebration. Until finally make myself become very very tired and no more energy. Is it I am very crazy, I think one time no attends the praise celebration is ok one, I also believe that God won’t force us to worship Him gua… I feel to angry and also very unwilling with going back to KL… when I reach wangsa maju, I was bully by the taxi driver, haiz… a very short distance he charge me RM 3… apalah?? Instead he never send me until in front of the church, he just throw me at the road…
But luckily I have come la, because ps Davil is so nice, he care my family, he concern them and also pray for them, I feel so touch leh. I got a feel like God answer my prayer thought him to me. I hope God can answer my prayer as soon as la…
AMEN

A letter to God

A letter to God
23th July 2009
Lord Jesus, I am Sherene, that is my 1st letter for you…
Jesus, please I ask for your help, you help me to heal my parent body. My daddy kidney report not so good, actually still got medicine can heal one, but the medicine is so expensive, instead our finance also got some problem. My daddy have to earn more money for our family and also afford our tuition fees, especially is my tuition fees… there is too expensive already. Father Lord, you come upon us please, although my parents still no know you yet. I need your help; you help me to solve the entire problem which I face now…
Only you can help me, you help me take away all my parents worry and also all the sadness. Jesus use your blood cover his body and wash his dirty blood. So that he can become more health. Oh lord, you help me to take away all his fear, suffer and all the negative thinking, you teach him how to think positive.
Father lord, I also pray for my mum, her health also not so good, this few day she always tell me her eye is feel painful, I think may be is her disease cause become like that. Lord all of us need my mum so much, especially my daddy… She cannot fall down, she have to strong, she need to support all of our family… You give her strength; give her power and energy to support my daddy… You send many many angels surround her and support her and also protect her. In bible say that Jesus can heal the blind and also all the serious disease, so that I really believe that Jesus can also help me heal my parents… I want open my heart to trust in you, I also believe that you are always hearing my prayer.
Jesus, please help me change my life, changes my bad attitude. You can punish me when I doing wrong, I willing to learn. I know that you are only one who dead for us, you give us free and take away all our sin. So I want to surrender you and also honor you. I am luckily knowing you, you let me know this worth, you give me anything, you bless me and also give a happiness life… lord Jesus, I hope all my family can also like me, accept you as our savior… you help me to let them know you are only one our God in this worth.
Jesus, I hope you don’t mind I pray to you like, because I only can write down all the prayer… I also do not know why I cannot speak out my prayer…hehe
In Jesus name I pray, AMEN!!!

ADJUST my confusing HEART

ADJUST my confusing HEART
12 July 2009 (Sunday)
Wa! Today feel not so well, feel very cold leh… My stomach like having many many air… aiyoyo feel so bad leh… but I still have to go church la… At the morning we eat and go to church together with all cell group members… Actually is quite happy one, but don’t know why my heart will feel uncomfortable ne?? I feel all my cell member and me are disconnected… That feeling have a bit lonely, and also unhappy… We like come from two different worth, when they are talking, I feel like no topic to chat with them… Then, they also like not discover this… haiz, sad la… I like a glass… I am very scare if I continue feel like that, think one day I will leave them liao la… But I like my leader and all my church members so much, because they care me like their younger sister, they teach me, support me when I am suffer, they pray for me, always belong with me and many many thing la…… all of this make me feel very very touch… Grace is my perfectly jie jie in my life, I cannot accept other people to be my leader… although I may go other place working in future, but she still will be my cell leader forever…
God let me know, what should do…? I hope I can be very very enjoy when we are together… God tell me, is it I am jealous with someone. But I dun want be jealousy leh, there is not good for me. In bible words, Galatians 5:20-22 say we cannot be jealousy, so I cannot like that one. But why I still cannot control myself ne?? Jesus, please help me take away this feeling and help me adjust my emotion…
Sherene Chia Fei Voon, you cannot like that one, you must remember that God love u soooo much ok. God love me, Jesus love me, my parents love me, all my younger sister and brother love me and all the church members love me also ok……
Don’t forget oh, Sherene Chia Fei Voon, you won’t alone one…
Don’t jealousy yeah!!! Sherene is a good good girl, you would not jealous one. I want do all thing which is all the jie jie are doing now, I want to help all college fresher and love them and also care for them… ok… Good! Good! Good!
Jesus, I believe that you are hearing me ho.

Cleaning our beloved church~~~ Clean... Clean... Clean...

Cleaning our beloved church~~~ Clean... Clean... Clean...
July 11, 2009(a very quiet night, all people are sleeping except me…)

Wa!!! I am happy, because I am a GOOD GOOD girl…
1st time I do house work, I never do house work before, because my home having maid since young, so I won’t have this opportunity to do all this kind of work… Hehe, actually I also lazy to do this thing la… When I am young, I always feel shy if my mum asks me to help kakak to do house work. So, I will not willing to do it…
But now… I like to do this thing so much… haiz!! Also dunno why I become so hard working jor~~~ my mum sure will feel happy one, if she know what I am doing now… she will feel I am become more mature already… Just now I know, doing house work can also very happy one… especially when you see that area become very very clean… so next time tell all my younger sister and brother know this thing… o(n_n)o XiXi

Today, jie jie ask me to vocumn our beloved church. At beginning I feel afraid with that machine, because it got a very noise sound… it is very very noise, make me feel nervous. I scare it will harm me. When I try my best to use it, I found that……hehe actually it is quite cute and funny one. I am holding this machine to eat all the rubbish. Very easier to control… if I got more money I decide to buy one for my home… haha
After cleaning our beloved church, most of us also hungry already, then we go take dinner together… wa!! We like a very big family ho~~~ although that restaurant is not very high class and also not very nice, because got some people smoking at there and also got some insect on the tree then suddenly fall down to your food, and make you food become more special… but I feel happy because we are eating together… that is my spiritual family and my spiritual life lo, hehe

Oh ya!! One more thing also make me so happy, that is washing Grace’s car…hehe
At evening l help my beloved leader Grace wash her pupu car… that also my 1st time washing a car oh, so happy leh… I can feel that her car also happy, because it is very clean already after we finish washing it… I give her car name as xiao ying, because Grace’s name is pei ying. So automatically her car name will be xiao ying lo, am I right?? I hope that they will be safe journey in every travelling, xiao ying will always help pei ying to fetch us… so we no need go to church by taxi or bus lo…haha! Amen!!!

Baptised!!! Sharing

Im sherene, I just get this new name...
I get water baptised last 2 week, so now im fresh, all things new... let me share something with all of you, before I baptised Im a very emotianal person, I can be very happy, but suddenly I can become very very down, until all my friends will say like that: why this hui wen always like one, suddenly diam-diam then dun wan talk to other... Make us no mood next time dun ask her to join our gethering liao la... that time I also same like what my pastor share with me before, I always feel lonely, although I got many many friends, most of them care me n love me soooo much, but I cant feel it... I always feel not enough, I wan get more n more but i also scare hurt by them...so very confuse ho...
I also always complain to God, God you are not fair... you answers all others prayer but u never answer my prayer... I hate u, rely rely hate u... im very hungry for this love from God, but he never giv me.. He always make me disappointed.. al this thing my cell group leader know one, because I always complian to her, sometime she also very angry, because Im very dengil I not accept what she is talking to me... All her advice i never try by my heart, I think she also got disappointed with me la...
But now I want to talk loudly to all of u.. God loves me so much... Actually that time He got answer my prayer one, just i dunno only.. I never use my heart to feel God's love, i just use my eye to search it, so I cant feel it that time lo... dunno y?? after I baptised I feel very happy, all the sadness and worry suddenly disappear.. Jesus takes away all my negative thinking and teach me to think positive.. He care for me like his baby, a 1 year old baby.. He will not allow the sadness disturb my life.. He always tell me, hui wen you are new born baby, that is your new life, it is a restart of ur life.. All de unhappy is pass tense.. So everyday i feel happy, but I dunno why i happy.. I happy without any reason.. That happiness cannot explain, no like im very hardworking to do revision, everyday i do then finally I get a very good result,.. no wo, not like de leh... That happy is come from my heart.. That feeling make me feel comfortable and peaceful... Let me feel this whole earth full of love... That is call peace and joy... In here,my heart and also in all of your heart also got, rite?? because we always know that God love us soooo much, amen!!! hehe