After reading someone's blog, i feel guilty...
i recieve too much of love from all people,
i am very enjoy with this kind of life, really...
but at the sametime i always ignore someone feeling,
feel like i had taken all her happiness,
feel like myself is the 3rd party in her world,
everyone need care, especailly for all new believer...
i recieve too many of care and also love from all my sister in christ,
really... too many
because of this reason, im active in church activity,
i learn to love one another, i always say want bring joy to everyone,
but am i really can do that?
i don't think so...
between enjoying people caring me, i had hurt one of my friend,
i also don't know how to explain, hope that she know i not purposely one,
i really hope that we can have a good relationship, really...

Satan always like to attack us from our weakness,
while what is human weakness???
Relationship between one another is our main weakness,
it is a super sensitive thing in our life,
hope that all my dearest friend can know,
when you feel lack on care with people, don't forget that our heavenly father's love,
for His love is unlimited one, although you cannot see and also very hard to feel it, but His love really always with us...
because of His love, i have good weather for everyday,
because of His love, i have a good relationship with people,
because of His love, i have a healthy body,
because of His love, i can think positive,
because of His love, i know how to satisfy my own demand,
because of His love, everyday i have joyful and peaceful heart,
because of His love, i never never be alone,although most of my time i will be alone, but can feel that God always with me, He always caring me when i feel tired...
just surrender all your feeling to God,
He is hungry hear you sharing,

last time i am a super super easier to feel jealous with everyone,
when all people are gather together i will feel lack on care,
feel pity because people ignore me...
so bad to have this feeling, it make me suffer in a very long time,
my whole brain is only can think how am i pity myself, why i am so cham o wat!wat!wat la...
really... bad
jealous make me become another person,
uncontralable i had became a emotianal person, sometime happy, sometime angry, sometime sad as well, super super self-pity on my life, always make comparison between one another...
oh, man... cant imagine that how bitterness on my life.
everyday feel unhappy because keep on jealous with someone,

to stop the feeling of jealous is open out your heart and try your best to love one another, it is the only way to scure the disease of jealous,
slowly slowly you will found that jealous disappear in your life then joyful will come upon you...
just an experience on me last time.. =D

A New Hui Wen

I am change…
Suddenly feel that I become a super super kepo person…
I don’t know why every day I like to pay attention to people around me…
Like to take care of them, hungry hear they share their unhappy to me,
Always wish to tell that life is not that bad, ask them cheer up a bit…
I feel tired but I keep on helping people, listen people share their sadness, counsel people and…
All this not my style, I never never think that I will be this kind of people,
Every day I ask myself: “hey, hui wen… what are u doing now??? How come you will become like that, it is amazing that you have this action, really…” sound like become another person already ho, I think so… a super powerful God change to be like that, I still confuse that whether it is good for me o not…
Only I can say is just be my own self, whether it is good or bad, I will know in future…
Don’t be surprise with all my action, I know who am I, I still hui wen… never never change