Am I Changes Already????

Suddenly feel weird,
why I not miss all of my friends already,
where are them?
Everyday saw them at Facebook and MSN,
but why i not that happy to meet them there,
why i not curious to know more about them,
I thought I miss them so much,
but why I have no more topic to talk with them...

Inside my heart appear a little Satan,
he always control my emotion,
he make me feel hate with every body here,
make me always reject people,
make easier to feel jealous,
make me up and down every time,
make me become selfish,
make me tell lie, seriously lie...
sometime make me ignore my Heavenly Father,

I am sorry, I not that strong,
all of my plan cannot go on,
I give up to fasting because of my part time job,
I give up to continue read my bible day by day because of some unacceptable excuse,
I give up to attend church because of the feeling of boring,
I give up to share testimony to people because of I care about people mind,
I give up to write latter to the Father,
because scare people around me come and talk something to me...

Doing right always make people uncomfortable,
it is a hard way if you choose to do right thing,
people hate do right thing person,
people always thought that they are "hidung tinggi",
but actually they are not "hidung tinggi"...
They just want to do RIGHT thing....
Why cannot..........

I like vampire, no more feeling inside my heart,
where is love in this world,
everything cold cold one,
very uncomfortable...

I am sorry, i not really want to be selfish,
it is the situation force me to be selfish.
It is reality world, I no choice...

I hate you all say "sherene, very selfish"...
Father help me, I don't want to be selfish, help me kill the Satan inside my heart, I don't want up n down every time. I don't like angry until the whole heart is shaking, it is very uncomfortable, I feel suffer to have this kind of feeling. Just a small matter only, but I always feel angry until my body start shaking, until I feel I want start crying. Plaese I don't want to angry. Please I don't want...

Reality Life

Life is very reality,
I am so tired to face the reality life,
Why people always cannot love one another?
What is inside their heart and their mind?
I really hope that I can read and i can know all people heart...

Always thought that everything inside my heart will be same with others,
Because we same
We are human,
We come from a same place,
We create by a same person and with a same thing,
What i have everyone also have,
But why we are different?
I am finding the answer?

From our external body,
We have ears, we can listen to people.
We have eyes, we can sight for everything.
We have hand, we can do our work with efficiency.
We have foot, we can go to everywhere.
We have a mouth, we can talk.
We have a nose, we can smell for everything.

Form our internal body,
We have blood, so we are still live.
We have heart, so our blood can move and send oxygen to our brain.
We have brain, so we have emotion.
We have spirit, so we know what should we do and not to do.

Pastor, Leader, Teacher, even our Parents....
They always tell us God is a great Man, a powerful Man in the world,
He is a winner for everything,
But why he loss the satan,
Why satan success to change human become so reality,
Why the world can be broken by him,
Why God don't want directly terminate satan,
Why He just let the satan continue to broken our world,

I talk to the Father louder and louder, until i shout to Him,
You are our winner,
Please catch the satan,
Please tie the satan with the rope made of hemp,
Please tie the satan tightly and tightly,
Don't let him come out from Your hand,
Only You can see him, can know where is his location,
Only You are able to do so......
Show the satan Your power,
We have fear to the Lord, satan also need,
he need to fear to the Lord as well....
Don't let he control us again.......

I am angry with all thing,
I am angry with him every time,
I am try to terminate him,
I want to clear all the satan and all the satan baby,
I hate him deeper and deeper,
I will not allow him to win my soul, my family soul, all my friend soul...
I won't stupid like others, they are afraid the satan, but i never...
never and never afraid him,

Satan, listen to me,
I am scolding you all the time,
share all of your bad thing to people,
I am gossip u all the time,
I tell people how you broken my life,
you are very clever, you make near to you, give me every good thing,
after that only use my soul to do the bad thing....
this time I learn to not use by you,
you have no more right to control me again and again....